This Friday, my oldest daughter Ashley graduates from preschool. I am really not sure if I should bring one box of tissues or two…and heck, just writing that sentence made me tear up. I know I am not going to handle it well. She was my first-born, and I am not ready to see her head off into kindergarten. I am ready to hold onto her, hug her tight and take her home, hug her tight some more. I know she is ready for this, I know she wants it. She has been looking forward to going into kindergarten for months now. I am just not sure I am ready.

And not only is it graduation day, it is my ten-year wedding anniversary. I once had grand plans of us renewing our vows in Disney World (those were quickly dashed when I realized how much it would cost).  It seems we have reached two milestones in one day…our little girl moving on into grade school, and my husband and I reaching a milestone in our life together.

Does it feel like ten years? On those days when nothing is going right, the kids are fighting, we are not agreeing on what to do with those fighting kids, yes, it absolutely feels like ten years. And then other times when we are all snuggled in bed on a Saturday morning watching cartoons, it seems like yesterday this family just started with a wedding among family and friends.

And that’s when I wish there was a pause button, so I could look and stare and get all I can of this family.

Amy appears every Wednesday on TriangleMom2Mom. Read more about Amy at A Family Story.